Hello Rachael, this seems to be a post about your process, dreams and plans. I too am publishing serial books (many that I edit on other sites), and I too have written one (12 years ago), and never did anything with it. I am sure it needs editing, but just re-reading as I publish the chapters (slowly), I still think it is right-on. It is also about well-being. (I shouldn't be saying this because I am not going to give it to you, since I do not connect my sites.) They each have their own life.
And I am not out to monetize anything. Well, that is the definition of "retired".
✓ I’m not a stupid person. I do think differently, and somewhat more analytically than others I meet, but by no means am I a stupid or unintelligent person.
At a certain point I self-define my own being, not by outside standards, especially not in distorted environments.
✓ I struggle with consistency. Some of this may be residual to the C-PTSD, and a larger share due to several years of turmoil as my school and work schedule constantly shifted. I’ve struggled to find a consistent rhythm, though there are some hang-ups, like sick days this week.
Consistency certainly can be a focus or a discipline, but without monetizing, there are no deadlines. So my consistency is based purely on enjoyment and satisfaction. I thoroughly enjoy thinking and writing about what I think. So I am here on your site with no regrets. And it goes both ways, without writing I wouldn't be "Thinking" but only recycling. This I know for a fact. Writing is the key to advancing as a human being. (For me.) That's why I honor most all writers. I also try not to make self-characterizations, "I act like this because I have these symptoms". They never seem to add to life.
✓ We’re all human and our human struggles frequently get in the way. I struggle with two posts per month, as well as having the emotional energy after a week of seeing anywhere from 14 to 16 clients4. And also paperwork. Therapists, early on in their careers as they learn to manage caseload, seem to consistently struggle with paperwork (many of my fellow pre-licensed coworkers have regularly lamented this). The documentation is a mountain, especially when you let it get away from you, as has happened.
Struggle is an interpretation and a definition that you can make. But why do it? Well, my goals were frustrated, so I have to "rinse and repeat". So that means you don't like to rinse and repeat?? Why not enjoy that too?
It is a whole different lifestyle to enjoy every last thing.
Congratulations on your upcoming book! I relate to this post. Writing anything, be it a newsletter or a novel is hard work, especially in the face of a terrible and stressful full time work situation. I've seen a few posts this week on burnout and I've experienced it, too. I also relate to having the feeling that you can't do the writing, or are not good enough. I've struggled with issues like that my whole life. Good luck with everything!
Hello Rachael, this seems to be a post about your process, dreams and plans. I too am publishing serial books (many that I edit on other sites), and I too have written one (12 years ago), and never did anything with it. I am sure it needs editing, but just re-reading as I publish the chapters (slowly), I still think it is right-on. It is also about well-being. (I shouldn't be saying this because I am not going to give it to you, since I do not connect my sites.) They each have their own life.
And I am not out to monetize anything. Well, that is the definition of "retired".
✓ I’m not a stupid person. I do think differently, and somewhat more analytically than others I meet, but by no means am I a stupid or unintelligent person.
At a certain point I self-define my own being, not by outside standards, especially not in distorted environments.
✓ I struggle with consistency. Some of this may be residual to the C-PTSD, and a larger share due to several years of turmoil as my school and work schedule constantly shifted. I’ve struggled to find a consistent rhythm, though there are some hang-ups, like sick days this week.
Consistency certainly can be a focus or a discipline, but without monetizing, there are no deadlines. So my consistency is based purely on enjoyment and satisfaction. I thoroughly enjoy thinking and writing about what I think. So I am here on your site with no regrets. And it goes both ways, without writing I wouldn't be "Thinking" but only recycling. This I know for a fact. Writing is the key to advancing as a human being. (For me.) That's why I honor most all writers. I also try not to make self-characterizations, "I act like this because I have these symptoms". They never seem to add to life.
✓ We’re all human and our human struggles frequently get in the way. I struggle with two posts per month, as well as having the emotional energy after a week of seeing anywhere from 14 to 16 clients4. And also paperwork. Therapists, early on in their careers as they learn to manage caseload, seem to consistently struggle with paperwork (many of my fellow pre-licensed coworkers have regularly lamented this). The documentation is a mountain, especially when you let it get away from you, as has happened.
Struggle is an interpretation and a definition that you can make. But why do it? Well, my goals were frustrated, so I have to "rinse and repeat". So that means you don't like to rinse and repeat?? Why not enjoy that too?
It is a whole different lifestyle to enjoy every last thing.
thanks for your input Rachael
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Congratulations on your upcoming book! I relate to this post. Writing anything, be it a newsletter or a novel is hard work, especially in the face of a terrible and stressful full time work situation. I've seen a few posts this week on burnout and I've experienced it, too. I also relate to having the feeling that you can't do the writing, or are not good enough. I've struggled with issues like that my whole life. Good luck with everything!